Do you ever wonder how you ended up where you are?? Like every single thing you’ve ever done had an effect on your world that you’re living in. Something about that thought is so special and intriguing to me. Like, 21 year old Jadium was insecure, afraid, in a difficult relationship, and had absolutely no idea what she wanted to do with her life. A decade later, I can’t believe the person I’ve become. What’s that law? Law of conservation? Idk something like that. “Energy cannot be created or destroyed, only converted from one form of energy to another” -famous person, not a Jadium original quote. Anyways. I think about this a lot. I feel like I had so much negative energy around me that I converted into positive and happy energy by making major changes.
In 10 years, I went from KCMO to WA, to OR, and now…. PA. I thought I’d have some kind of plan by now, but nope. I’m winging it every freaking day. I love my career but outside of that, I have no idea what I’m doing here. Like obviously I’m not a comedian like I was put on this earth to be but I am still on the up and up. I’m just saying, fake it til you make it. You never know what could happen. Like, I went to a soccer game when I don’t even like it. Made a group of friends that went to the Colts v Eagles preseason game with me. That was a win in my book. Then, I told Karr to move to PA and we decided to go to the Colts v Ravens game and I posted it on Twitter so I could meet people off Colts twitter. IYKYK, ok…. a human messaged me & we happen to live 30 mins apart. Now we’ve been on some dates and are hitting it off. (Soft reveal coming soon???) Like, every single small decision can have such an insane outcome. The universe does not let you plan for yourself. So really, we are all out here trying to play god for ourselves and we can’t do that.
Another example, I went into derm like my mom. Stumbled into MOHS and Histology, and now I moved across the country and this is my career. It’s just insane. Had I not taken that chance to then move to Oregon and advance my career, I’d never be here in PA. Idk. Does anyone else think about how one small decision could have changed EVERYTHING!? This is why I decided I don’t have regrets.
I also never saw myself being alone at 31. When I look at my friends married with or without kids, sometimes I wish I wanted those things. I do want to get married some day, just no kiddos for me. Which, kind of makes me feel like something is wrong with me. However, I love Sadie girl more than anything and so that’s enough for me.
Anyways, if you think you have a say in the greater plan for you… just enjoy the ride because you don’t, I don’t, no one does. Control what you can, enjoy the ride on what you can’t.
Remember If you don’t like your cards, make changes and let the universe do its thing. Take it from me, a spontaneous move is good for the soul. The best thing about taking a leap of faith is, you can always change your mind and go back. Even if something doesn’t go as planned, it’s some kind of a lesson and it will make you grow. This is my second state on my own, and even though I have my saddie days, i still have my baddie days. Soooo, for the 1000th time.... trust the process.
Okay I’m done rambling for today. Stay tuned for my Post Colts v Ravens game blog! I’ll be the one in the parking lot with a beer bong living my best sports fan life. I thrive for away games.
K byeeeee :)
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