Honestly, the reality of leaving the Pacific Northwest is finally starting to hit me… I literally signed my new jobs offer letter on Thursday. I've started looking at places and moving companies and I talk to the company about placing me in a hotel for a month until I find a place.... honestly everything felt OK until Saturday hit. I haven't really been able to sleep because I've had about 1 million things on my brain. Someone unexpected showed up back in my life the other day and it's just been a whirl of emotions the last three or four days, but I've been keeping myself very busy, because I really know that this is going to be an amazing experience for me .
i'm not really sure what I'm the most sad about but I do know that I love these humans so much. Devin and I spent Saturday Paddle Boarding at Detroit lake, it was perfection. Sunday, I drove to the cost to let Sadie run around all crazy with her beach zoomies. I also have been looking at getting a tattoo before I leave so something can always make me look back at home. The pacific north west is the only place I have ever felt at home, especially Washington. Oregon has really won me over lately, though.
The best part about my upcoming journey is, I'm going for it. The worst that can happen is, I don't like it and I come back. What's the point of living if you can't try and experience new things? Life is so short and I want to soak up every single opportunity that I can. As much as I love my humans here, I've known for a while this wasn't my forever lab that I'm currently working in. The recruiter for HT's really opened up my mind. This was the 3rd time her and I had talked but I kept going back and forth. This time felt different though.
After things ended with my last relationship, I was hurting for a really long time. Internally of course, I'm not the best at displaying or talking about my emotions unless you're very close to me. I think that ending really helped me make this decision for me and only me. When he popped back up recently it was kind/sweet, but it's been difficult ever since.. I did let him know the news of me leaving and he's sad but also happy for me. That's a chapter officially closed, as much as it can be until time passes. I don't have to leave feeling like I didn't say goodbye to the people who impacted me while in Oregon.
My Washington friends are going off to PA and NP school, they are also on their own 2+ year journeys. So, maybe we will all end up back to WA at the same time! However having friends all over the US has been the best for me. I love having people to visit! As for my soul friend Brietta, well I know some day they plan to move but she's become family to me so I know I'll keep her in my life forever.
I have 3 weeks left of work and 5 weeks until I start my drive across the country. I'm terrified, but I know it will be great. I'm likely going to stop in KC for 2 days or so to see my cousin, his wife, and their (by then will be born) baby! Then of course my brother and EJ (his roomie/family now) and my best friends Britt and Naomi! Whoever else I see, it will be lovely. However, it's a short trip (Per usual). Then I'll prob stop in Indy, maybe meet up with a Colts fan friend or two, and finally make it to my last destination.
For now, I plan to enjoy one day at a time while I process these emotions and let it sink in the wild ride I have ahead. Time to enjoy the next several weeks 1 day at a time!!
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